B*****A**NESS

Sick of it personally. Tired of people trying to make other people into fit their perfect modes. Why can't people just let people be what they wanted to be.

I personally started listening to everyone except me. I let me slip through my fingers instead of getting me by the shoulders and getting the heck out of there. I know God puts us in situations to help us grow or to help others grow. My old instinct would have told me to run from the situtation and not sit through it. I didn't like confronting what was in front of me, I also didn't like to see bad situations unfold in my eyes. But I'm starting to see that its okay to be disappointed, its okay to cry, its okay to feel some kind of emotion.

That's why I'm going to start be 150% honest now and not let people get to me. Family or not, your not me and your not going to hinder my blessings any longer. Yeah sure peoples opinions hurt but oh well, you can take them or run with them. People need to stop making excuses as to why they hurt others and start loving themselves more. I'm starting to figure out that people and being jealous can make life a living hell.

And writing this, I'm actually smiling and thinking yeah I'll be alright. I have to confront the two people in this world that are bothering me the most and getting under my skin, because they will not hold me back in this world. All I need to do is go back to what I know and do best, draw....

The Itch of Females...

So everyone knows that me and female friends don't mix. I get and I lose em. I love em to death, but our friendships always in up in death. I don't know why I get em and lose em. I think its because since I'm a female and female hormones are a very big key in the picture. Attitude's keeping up and driving us crazy. So I guess I'm trying to keep the few I do have, can't have nothing but male friends, I'll go crazy in all the male-nodes. Three years ago I went through the same situation, a big group of girl friends and not one but ALL of us got into at the same time. He say she say, was a big factor in it. It took us a YEAR to get back on good graces with each other. But I think we all still have an eyebrow raised to each other. With all the woman's studies classes and doctors, you think they would be able to figure out whats wrong with us.

BC Time

So I'm popping pills once again, because of this little thing called my "hooker" co-workers. I work with people that don't believe in being safe with sex or life. I guess being my age that I am, I was raised to respect your body, mind, and soul. We were to treat out bodies as if they were the most beautiful temple or building around. But not these girls, they believe in trying before you buy. Which I'm not gonna preach at them for having sex, just having sex with multiple people without condoms or birth control. I'm not with anyone but I believe strongly in birth control. Whats the world coming to that being fast and dressing fast is appropriate. They look up to Miley and say she dresses like that, so I guess its ok. And the environment that they are raised in, is no better than their attitudes to they bring to work. But to really add to anything, one of them is expecting. Which I think two more are expecting to but just not saying anything. They think its cute and don't see anything wrong with it. I'm in my mid twenties and I would never dream of bringing a child in this world without any true goals, real income or proper place for them. They think it is so cute. The girl is barely a spec preg and she already has the name picked out. IDK..... I guess I'm trying to say, it's time for a TRUE intervention for these young girl and boys. Instead of preaching and saying wrap it up or don't have sex, they need to REALLY show what happens to your life, your childs life, your parents life. They think because they are the ones having the baby that can be selfish and demanding. I will not feel sorry or apologies to them for their actions. They know how I feel and know how everyone else feels, but still feels like being fast and pregnant is the way to be.

Well Here We Are...

So this blog is dedicate to the "cage" feeling we get. Sometimes in life we feel trapped and feel as though things can't get any better, well they can.