Wednesday, October 21, 2009

B*****A**NESS

Sick of it personally. Tired of people trying to make other people into fit their perfect modes. Why can't people just let people be what they wanted to be.

I personally started listening to everyone except me. I let me slip through my fingers instead of getting me by the shoulders and getting the heck out of there. I know God puts us in situations to help us grow or to help others grow. My old instinct would have told me to run from the situtation and not sit through it. I didn't like confronting what was in front of me, I also didn't like to see bad situations unfold in my eyes. But I'm starting to see that its okay to be disappointed, its okay to cry, its okay to feel some kind of emotion.

That's why I'm going to start be 150% honest now and not let people get to me. Family or not, your not me and your not going to hinder my blessings any longer. Yeah sure peoples opinions hurt but oh well, you can take them or run with them. People need to stop making excuses as to why they hurt others and start loving themselves more. I'm starting to figure out that people and being jealous can make life a living hell.

And writing this, I'm actually smiling and thinking yeah I'll be alright. I have to confront the two people in this world that are bothering me the most and getting under my skin, because they will not hold me back in this world. All I need to do is go back to what I know and do best, draw....